Only a little faith …
Christianity is made of mega church growing, worship concerts, sects and theological talk.
Which can be reduced to human efforts, enthusiasm, cantankerousness and idling compensation.
Such human stuff has ousted the divine by sheer ubiquity. And now:
Where I find a sect, it makes me doubt their claims of divine revelations.
Where I find a revelation in my life, I remind the sect and doubt my senses.
Where I perceive a mega church, it makes me doubt their claims of divine buildup.
Where I perceive God to build something in my little church, I remind the mega church and doubt my perception.
Human success and human error robbed my perception of God’s reality.
Which I still claim to believe.
But I don’t believe.
Because I don’t really believe in Spirit-given infinite community, even a workaround for Ubuntu bug #94226 makes me happy.
Because I don’t really believe God loves us all the same I was reluctant to sit down beneath a tramp.
Because I don’t really believe that God is as real as the people around me, I obey people more than God.
Because I don’t really believe that Jesus wants to give two quality lifes, I am contended with small talk based relationships in this one.
Because I don’t really believe I don’t understand how somebody cannot but talk about Jesus.
Because I don’t really believe a church can become a well-functioning organism ever, I am reluctant to invest here.
Because I don’t really believe I cannot tell between evangelising and proselytising at most times.
Because we don’t really believe, we re-fill our practically God-free, boring life by “prophecying” all day.
Because we don’t really believe, we proclaim the truth in church again and again, to drown out our fear of confessing to unbelievers.
… but when taking a risk …
Oh we of little faith, let us not believe with words or with thoughts, but in deed and truth.
But it is a risk to take our hypothesis about God seriously and to act upon it.
Taking a risk is no step of a real believer, but a step compelled by logic.
Taking a risk is: being open to unprecedented change. Including:
To find out that our hypothesis is not in all correct, or not at all correct.
To lose people’s appreciation and tolerance.
To experience God, affirming our believed hypothesis.
To experience God, affirming our believed hypothesis, but delayed by 5 years.
To experience God changing the circumstances we were so comfortable with.
No risk means: to stay in status quo.
That’s either moderately believed falsehood or not really believed truth.
Who knows before. But it’s both comfortable and disgusting.
How to act upon our faith practically? Jesus is a list of inspirations. He was always straight and faithful.
And, by the way: there’s happiness in acting according to truth.
… one can experience God again.
Taking a risk does not make you a real believer.
You just allow God to make you a real believer.
By showing his power in your life.
Which might include:
[Some unknown lines here; need to
find out this part myself yet.]
After all this, you might have learned that it’s no risk to be a real believer.
Because there is a real God you can trust him more than the concrete you walk upon.